Around January a whole bunch of my friends and I decided to have a girls night at Alyssa's (my best friend) parent's house and go hot-tubbing (one of our favorite past time's!). While we were there we were all talking about when we all have kids and what it would be like and how long we all wanted to wait...blah blah blah. I shared that all of my life all I have wanted is to be a Godly wife and mother and I was so excited to be, but Jamie and I wanted to wait until he graduated from ORU, which would have been another 2-3 years. Little did I know at that time that I was already...ok- I'm going to explain how I found this little tid-bit of info. out that would change the rest of my life!
About 3 weeks later, Tulsa got record-breaking snowfall, and Jamie and I actually got blizzard-ed (ha! I made that word up-because I can. :) into our apartment. Now, Jamie and I are hard-core winter people so we were so so excited! However, I ended up getting sick that same week. And when I say sick, I mean REALLY sick. So sick that I basically slept on the bathroom floor for days. Jamie kept asking me if I thought I was pregnant, but I kept saying "Um, no? It's not possible. I'm just sick!" But, he insisted on going to the store and buying me a pregnancy test. I think he just knew...he had a feeling. It took me a while to take one because I was so nervous as to what it was going to say. I guess you could say I just knew, too. And the longer I put off taking the test, the longer I 'wasn't' pregnant, HAHA! Well, I took the first one the next day (after he bought them) and sure enough...2 lines. However light that second line was- there was STILL a second line. "OH.MY.GOSH." A flood of emotions ran through me as I begin to panic. At this point I was the only one that knew and I was freaking. "There is NO WAY we can have a baby right now! Jamie is in school full time and I am working full time...how can we afford a baby??" I think I made myself even more sick than I already was. (Come to find out I had strep throat on top of morning sickness- that sucked!!)
I had always dreamed of how I would tell Jamie I was pregnant, but this was NOT the way any of it was planned by me. Instead of waiting, calming down, coming up with some really romantic or cute way to tell Jamie he was going to be a dad, I simply asked him, "So, how would you feel about being a dad?" How embarrassing. If I could turn back the hands of time, you better believe I would have told him WAY differently. But I was panicking, I was frustrated, scared, excited, sick and every other emotion you could ever think of. He was so sweet about it, though...even though I know he would have liked for it to have been a little more romantic than a simple question between my vomits, LOL. Once I asked him, and incredibly big and genuine smile began to creep across his stubbly, non-shaven face. "Really? Are you serious??" He was immediately excited. That really helped to ease my anxiety. I knew it would be ok because I had the support and love of a man that I am MADLY in love with, and that is going to be the most incredible father ever.
We wanted to drive to Missouri that weekend to tell our families in person, but ended up getting more snow so it was just impossible. Not to mention I was still sick, so driving in a car 6 hours was honestly the LAST thing I wanted to be doing. We ended up keeping it to ourselves for that week until I could go to the doctor and confirm it. I had my confirmation at the doctor's office that next week, so we told Jamie's family via a phone call and my family via Skype. Everyone was VERY surprised, to say the least, but so very excited. We definitely had the support of both of our families.
Jamie and I wanted to find out the gender of the baby for sure, but was going to wait until I was 19 weeks along to find out with all of our family together. However, to our surprise at only 16 weeks, little baby Oakley decided to show us FOR SURE what gender it was at a routine ultra-sound. Both Jamie and I could tell immediately what it was and although didn't expect to find out until later, we asked the doctor for sure. Jamie said,"It's a girl, isn't it?" I knew, too. She spread her legs out and made sure we knew there was nothing there. The doctor smiled, looked at me and said "Daddy's good!" oh my geez. A girl!? SO EXCITING! AND, we kept it a secret from everyone for 3 weeks! It was hard, oh my gosh was it hard. But we didn't get to tell our families in person that we were pregnant so gosh darnit, we were going to be able to tell them what we were having in person! And we did- we announced to both of our families over breakfast after a trip to Missouri, that we were having girl. Everyone was ecstatic!! My family is loaded with boys, so throwing a girl into the mix is going to be so fun!!
So here I am today. The past 9 months have been a roller coaster. I was only sick for the 1st trimester, the 2nd was my favorite, the 3rd is tiring and rough because I'm so fat, haha! I am now 9 months pregnant, due in 3 1/2 weeks (Sept. 28), and ready to hold my little angel on the outside of my tummy. Jamie and I are both SO SO SO very excited, and cannot wait to endure the many MANY life changes we are about to embark on. Although this was NOT our plan, very rarely do our plans stay what we originally wanted them to be, huh? God's ways are ALWAYS higher than ours, and His plans are ALWAYS better than ours.
Can't wait to meet you, Annisyn Raquel! :)
Blizzard of 2011!
Annisyn's profile!!
All the names Jamie and I thought about before
deciding on Annisyn.
Holding my angel in my tummy...
(31 weeks along)
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